I think I have become addicted to blogging. Micah finally fell asleep for her daily nap. 12 loads of laundry done and 3 more to go. Everything is clean and so I have a few minutes to spare on blogging.
I love you so much but I don't show it enough and I don't tell you enough. I constantly have a thousand different thoughts running through my mind all day everyday. Does Micah need diapers? Is she almost out? What about wipes? How much laundry is there to do?Do we have enough detergent ? What time is Elijah's football game this week? When should I start laundry? When did I eat last? When did I shower last? Did I brush my teeth today? Are all the garbages out? Did I call Grandma today to check up on her? When did I call her last? Crap have I even taken the time to call my brother all week just so that he doesn't feel like I forgot about him? My mom called 5 hours ago did I call her back?When did Micah last take a bath? Did I give her daily nasal drops? What time did she eat last again? ......it never ends. I feel like I'm constantly trying to please everyone around me that I don't have my special time with you. I always tell myself that you understand but you deserve my attention. I'm so caught up in trying to have everything perfect that I get so frustrated and the attention that you do receive from me is a negative one. Finally when I'm laying down next to you at night, when my thoughts have slowed down a bit you're already sleeping. I want you to know that I'm still adjusting to our new life and I do think about you and I do realize that I push you away and I don't mean to. I do realize that sometimes we hardly say a word to each other in a day and I'm trying to change that. I need to stop this whole "Super mom" thing because sometimes I just want to lay down and breathe but I can't. I love you and I hope you understand and you're amazing.
Why do people always try to give me parenting advice? Do this do that. My daughter is well taken care of thank you very much. I've read more books than you can imagine my 9 months of pregnancy. I've researched pretty much everything you need to know about being a parent I mean I' sure I don't know EVERYTHING but I'll learn throughout the years. I don't care how you raised your child, I'm going to raise my daughter the way I want to .I'm not going to base my decision on you and how you discipline your children. I don't care if you don't give your child a pacifier obviously you didn't do YOUR research because a child who uses a pacifier has less chances of having orthodontic problems in the future oppose to one who doesn't use a pacifier. Not only that but it also lessens the risk of SIDS and using a pacifier stimulates the flow of saliva which is a natural intestinal lubricant , therefore one who uses it is less likely to have stomach aches. So you can shut your mouth. My daughter is advanced for her age, her pediatrician says she acts two months older than she is. She's reached milestones that are way past her age, and not only do I hear it from her but I also hear it from others. Obviously I'm doing very well with my child. So here is an advice for you......keep your opinions to yourself unless someone asks for it because no two babies are the same.
On a happier note, it's almost the Holidays and I am very very ecstatic. It's Micah's first Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year and it's just exciting.I can't wait to decorate the Christmas tree and be with family. I can't wait for the snow, I can't wait for snowboarding .I can't wait to buy presents and wrap them. I can't wait to send out Christmas cards. I just can't wait.
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